How secretive are you about your training?
Do you tell the truth when someone (a NON triathlete) asks you how much you train or what you are doing for training?
Who do you downright lie to about your training?
I ask because I find myself lying about my training -- a lot. A colleague asks me where I'm going after work and invariably I'll say to run errands. I am never running errands. I am going to the gym. Or I am going running and I'm changing into my running garb at Starbucks.
When my mother-in-law asks if I have been running lately I will tell her no, life is too busy. I have laid off the training. I don't want her to know. I think she thinks I'm sick.
If my BEST friends (who don't train) ask me about my training I may not lie, but I will blow it off. Oh, it's fine. You know. I love it. I've been trying to get in the workouts I feel I should. So how are you?
I don't mention I have a coach.
I don't mention I just dropped thousands on a bike.
I don't mention that I think about racing and training when I'm alone in the car, or when I get bored at work, or in the middle of the night when I can't sleep.
I don't mention how much I want to KICK ass this season.
I don't mention that on my bookshelf I have about two dozen books on triathlon, sports nutrition, mental training, running, swimming technique, biking workouts, strength training etc.
I don't mention that I have a blog. I only have one non-training friend who knows about my blog. She only knows be/c I can trust her to still love me.
My parents don't know.
My siblings don't know.
My neighbors don't know.
My friends don't know.
Only you know.
And worst of all, maybe:
When I work out after school I never go home first and park in my driveway. I change at the gym or at Starbucks or in my car and do a workout from some random parking lot somewhere so that the mommies in the neighborhood won't see that I'm running instead of picking up my babies from daycare in a timely fashion.
Why do I do this?
I don't really know.
Here are some possible reasons:
1. (the biggest.)
It's selfish. I'm selfish. I don't want people to know I'm selfish.
Every moment I'm training or thinking about training I should be spending with my kids or thinking about my kids or loving my kids or working with my kids.
2. Because they don't get it. They meaning everyone who doesn't run, bike or swim or all three--for fun. And I don't want to explain.
3. Because I want people to like me.
Most of the time I feel like I am hiding who I truly am.
This is the end of my confession.