I have not posted much this month. It was a busy month. I am also battling a bad case of the borings. If feel boring, I am acting boring, I look boring. My thoughts are boring.
I'm boring myself.
It's a drag.
In January I will be super interesting. I can't stay this boring forever.
Today when I was on the bike (trainer) I was watching the 2010 Kona video. In it one of the pro athletes was commenting on how he wasn't sure Macca had the fight in him to win the race this year. Macca seemed content in his life, he said, and therefore he questioned whether he had the fire to win. Last year I remember Macca making the very same comment about Stadler and Al-Sultan--that they were content in their lives-- and that somehow the fact that they were "at peace" meant they were may not be contenders in the way they once were.
Do you think that's true?
Obviously it was not true for Chris McCormack--by which I mean not that he is not content in his life (I have no idea about something like that) but that he clearly still had some fire come race day....
But in general, is it true? Do we peform our best in sport when we are NOT balanced? Not content?
Are being at peace and winning at odds with one another?
There is a lot of talk in triathlon circles about how it is not just the stress of training that matters when attempting to keep our bodies healthy, but the stress of our lives combined with the stress of training. If we are struggling--with a relationship, with a job (or lack of one), with sickness--then we are less able to train well (supposedly) and more likely to race poorly. Right? But that thinking is in direct opposition to the position that fire comes from discontent; that without discontent we are not mentally fit to win.
Just as an exercise, I tried to figure out when I have raced my best.
And you know what? I think the race in which I performed best in my tri career (thus far) came at a time in which I was in extreme personal turmoil. Of course, I have also performed well when I was at peace (or relative peace) in my personal life. So go figure.
I can think of two reasons that race went so well: one, I was super small. (stress-induced smallness) and two, I was so overwrought that I was unable to over-analyze my race. I just raced.
Anyway. I am not exactly quite sure where I am going with this. Perhaps I am too boring right now to be particularly insightful. But I'm interested in what you think. Does peak performance require a background of discontent? or can we perform our best when the stars are all aligned in our lives?